Anne, for sure, it is a loss to grieve. Your loss of security includes the loss of a human life--your baby--so I can't imagine how difficult that has been. You have my sincerest condolences. So although I can't relate on that level, I have had my own loss with security, and with that I can empathize. With divorce and then Hurricane Harvey, I realized that my sense of "home" was destroyed--like you, I realized that something I had taken as a given could be taken away in a moment. I had to grieve my belief structures surrounding what security looked like. Ever so slowly my healing came in that I began to believe that home is something I carry within me. I am safe within my own energy field. Wherever I am, I am at home. Trauma is not something that often heals quickly or pretty, but I hope for you that you are able to regain a new sense of security--one that can't be taken from you as long as you still have breath.